The Devil

The Devil card turns up in my readings when I find myself feeling controlled by outside forces, or when I fall into addictive behavior. I have struggled with alcoholism for over ten years and I fight it tooth and nail (Temperance, please!) However, there are other forms of addiction which can be more insidious because they are more socially acceptable, can be hidden from others more effectively, or both. 

December 10, 2019 – Artist: Heather, Esoteric Dreamers

For one, we can find ourselves in toxic relationships. In my previous post, on January 3rd, I tried to discover the purpose of the 3 of Swords card as my advice. Later that night, after a fair amount of alcohol (shaking my head), I acted out in an unpleasant manner. I was still upset about my friend and her partner, especially because this night, the partner’s behavior was becoming more erratic. 

I fled the scene, then blew up at my friend via text. Told her she was turning into someone I didn’t know anymore; that her partner is compromising her. Maybe I was right about my feelings, but I was wrong in how I went about it. That is my biggest weakness – being able to communicate to others when I feel bad about something in our relationship. Often, it takes me drinking to let it all out. And when it comes, it is a floodplain.

The problem is, I was also intensely frightened about what was coming with the electoral college count and all that was going on with our president at the time. “It’s going to be wild.” I’m sure. 

For four-plus years, I have dealt with mental breakdowns caused by the fear of what he would bring to America’s table. He’s had a Devil-like control over my fear for a long time now. It made me sick to my stomach whenever he spoke because I never knew what kind of xenophobic or pandering statements might come out. 

I knew the Tower was going to fall back in March of 2020, when I did a reading which predicted him losing power. However, I was also concerned about bombs at the time due to a coffee prediction. Thankfully, none went off at the Capitol on January 6th, despite several being found at the scene. 

January 2, 2021 – Artist: Heather, Esoteric Dreamers

Getting back to my friend, however, I cut ties with her for about a week (Jan 3-10th). It gave me time to figure out that the reason I was so upset over her and her partner’s sudden 100%-of-the-time relationship was because she and I had been in a codependent relationship of our own. One of my diagnoses, other than alcoholism, is borderline personality disorder. 

I don’t share this lightly, because there is a lot of Judgment involved. Borderline people tend to get caught up in relationships which invest a lot of time and effort, as though they are absorbed by that person’s energy. It is another type of addiction, in its own regard. 

The Devil card rules addictions. It is as though you are a puppet on a string and have no control over your own actions. Sometimes, relationships can do this to me. I have also witnessed this behavior on behalf of the former president I was speaking of. 

The internet is a powerful tool, arguably one of the most powerful, because it controls communications. I theorized once in the early 2000’s during the Iraq War, as a left-thinking person, that the only way we will ever gain power against authoritarian regimes is with many people getting together through the internet to work as a collective. 

Little did I know that it would later BE an authoritarian regime which would wield this powerful tool to promote its own authority. 

“The pen is mightier than the sword”

– Edward Bulwer-Lytton

As I mentioned before, I – and so many others – have been traumatized by the rhetoric which has spewed on us since 2015 and before. However, some of us have been traumatized in a different way. The people whose minds have been deluded into believing the dangerous Qanon conspiracy are also highly distraught by the loss of their leader. 

I was told yesterday of a dream someone I know had about 6 weeks ago – this person loves Trump. She dreamed the Devil was huge and towering over her in the sky. God and His angels were coming to fight him from below as he loomed across the atmosphere. If that dream wasn’t a warning for her to change her ways and thoughts about her president, I truly don’t know what is. 

The Devil card – Crow Tarot deck

The persuasion and misinformation campaigns which have been presented and force-fed to us over the last decade are really beginning to wear on America’s nerves. We the people, and I mean all of us, as a collective, must repent from our addictions in order to heal. 

Cognitive dissonance is a force to be reckoned with here. There is alternative information available for confirmation bias for anyone who does not want to accept reality. This is why we need to have calm conversations and listen to the argument of the other side so we can understand what brought them to their beliefs. Yes, racism is heavy in the right-wing movement, but there are people, like my mother, who are sincerely afraid of the left-wing agenda as well. 

The fact that the riots in the BLM movement in 2020 were not condemned by the left is an enormous talking point for the right. I do not condone violence in any form. The Devil card is also behind our desire to hurt and kill. To those who look to violence I say: Remember Dr. Martin Luther King, Dick Gregory, and others who promote peace, are the ones whose messages will long outlast their lives, bringing hope for humanity.

Remember everyone, hurting people hurt others. That is the underlying cause behind this chaos. America is in pain and we need to recover. It is time for us to look at the Hanged Man (Chiron) from a new angle so we can move forward as a nation. 

2 responses to “The Devil”

  1. […] painting was important to me; I included it in The Devil post on January 22nd. It was my Donald Trump/The Tower/Three of Swords/Terrapin Station story. […]


  2. […] and over, it is a strong indication that you should pay attention to it. Just as I kept getting the Devil over the last few months – I had him as advice yesterday, ugh – it is a sign to make an […]


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